Compromising Without Reason

ever encountered a problem where it affects you too much? a problem where you dont know what to do? even to the point where you compromise without reason? i will tell you something

if you encountered financial problems in your family, it affects the whole family so it includes you. if you ask yourself, money is important to our lives and having money problems is very bad. you dont know what to do. you cope with life with your friends like for example you ask your friend if he could help you in printing. it becomes a habit, you dont know it can be bad once you do it everyday but having financial problems you cant do anything but to ask help. it becomes worse, you want to feel the feeling of having no financial problems, it becomes your addiction, your greed yet financial problems make it stay. you didnt know what to do, no choices open, no room to go. you let your problems drive you and it drove you to something bad but you cant do anything but mourn since there is no left or right turn. this turns to compromising. you compromise everyday yet everyone hates it. its ok for you since this is the only way, its fate. you pretend you dont know what you are doing yet you really know. downgrading yourself into nothing. putting yourself down. it destroys you but you dont tell since once they know, it may cause an outbreak, you are scared to face the truth. you want to be in luxury, being in your imagination everyday.

in the past, i became one of those compromising people... i let my problems drive me to somewhere not plesant. it affected some of my friends and it nearly destroyed one relationship that i like. i learned that problems can be converted into something positive... also positive with people too. you might not have anywhere to go so changing your room is one of the solutions i thought about. i wanted to share this since it took me to the past again today... if you are someone like this please, change for the better not for the worst. dont let your problems and emotions drive you. look onto reality, imagining stuff is bad once you abuse it.

by the way.... 20 posts for Feb 20 ah.... wow :D